things are pretty OK lately.
certainly not wonderful but
pretty darn OK.
I'll take it :)
the meds have seemed to
stabilize which is huge.
met w/the Dr. and he was
super nice and informative.
had a couple of really nice
 days with speaking and
smiles....
what more could one want
when dealing with this disease?
yesterday I said, "Hey Pops, do
you know my name today?"
He looked right at me and said,
"Today"!!!!!!
Must keep the humor!

i took these 2 pics when pops was off all mood altering

drugs and was the best we'd seen him in a very long time.

i'm glad i took these and i'm glad he was so happy on this day.

now they have put him back on a very low dose of meds but it

sure does make a difference.  i haven't seen him this happy ever

since.  not alot we can do about it.  they need to be able to handle

him.  this is what they feel they need to do.  so be it.  i hope to be

able to make a dr. appt. next week.  we will see.  he isn't too bad

but he sure is not as happy as he was in these pictures.

i have a busy weekend aheard and am feeling horrible about my

lack of time to be able to go visit.  i usually go tues, fri and once

on the weekend.  but this weekend is pretty booked.  i think leah

will be able to go which will help.  she is a very good visitor and

he LOVES her the best!

i miss my daddy

Random thoughts for a Friday

• My anger management is improving!
• They put Pops back on 2 doses of Seroquel. I'm trying to wait it out and see how it goes without being overly upset about it.
• Spring brings with it fresh outlooks on life.
• I can't wait to bring Pops outside when we visit this spring and summer.
• Leah and I want to take him to the DQ! We can walk there but would probably need to borrow a wheelchair for him because it's a little far!
• My children continue to amaze me each and everyday.
• Random people/strangers amaze me when they are genuinely interested in my life caring for someone with AD.
• I love it when people ask me how my dad is doing, even though it doesn't happen very often.
• I continue to be amazed by the kindness and love of strangers and the lack of it from my family........

i miss my daddy

Anger, what else!

"For every minute you are angry,
you lose sixty seconds of happiness"--Ralph Waldo Emerson


This quote hit me this morning.  I need to get over my
anger and start focusing on being happy.
I need to look for reasons to be happy.
I know that I can find them if I look.
There are many blessings around me and
around my dad and even around this horrible situation.
If I can allow myself to let go of the anger perhaps they will
become more vibrant in my daily life.
I have definitely been better lately. 
Not because things have changed,
because they really haven't..
But I think because I am letting go...
Letting go of the anger that has
been controlling me for a very long time....
It is important to be able to realize that
you have anger and it is even more
important to let it go.
I am working hard at it.
I am trying to follow my own words:
"I am only responsible for my own actions and not those of anyone else"
So much easier said than done.


i miss my daddy