I think I am trying hard to not be angry
at certain family members.
But am I ?
I guess I am not sure..
Why do I feel so much anger and
resentment if I'm trying hard not to
feel it?
It is a very weird thing.
I cannot quite explain it.
Maybe it is that I WANT to try hard.
I get so angry over things I hear.
Like this----
Brother speaking to my mother:
Brother: "Who is going to the cabin this weekend?"
Mother: "Nobody"
Brother: "OH, GREAT, we will go up there then, man is (wife)
going to love this!!!"
ME:  REALLY YOU A-HOLE?? Are you Fing kidding me??????
This particual brother has not done SHIT for
this family during our time of crisis. 
I am so sick of people coming around for fun and games
and then disappearing during important times of need.
It's not fair and it is rude and selfish and totally
and completly uncalled for.
I wish my mom would let him/them have it but
I guess I can't blame her. She is 79 years old
and has always been a peace maker.
OH and then the brother has the nerve to
say that he will stop by to see Pops on Sunday since
it's Father's Day.
You know what, GO AWAY.
STFU you big jerk

LOL
I don't think my anger has subsided at all!!!
I remind myself,
I'm only responsible for my own actions.
I have no control over other people and their actions.
My dad would be appalled at their behavior.

i miss my daddy