Sometimes I just don't feel like
writing about this situation.
It has been a month since I've
written.  I want to remember some things
but I want to forget most.
I guess that is why it is so sporatic.
Things continue to move along....
slowly
no realy progress either way,
good or bad..
just maintaining.

Last night we visited later in the evening.
Pops was in a really good mood.  Overjoyed
to see us.  Makes me feel really bad that
the summers are just so busy and I just
can't get there as often as I would like to.
But what can you do....only so much.
When I was getting ready to leave,
I bent over and kissed his head like I always
do.  His eyes got huge and he reached for
my hand.  He brought it to his lips and kissed
my hand and just looked at me.  It was so
precious and sad at the same time.
Leah and Tyler were both there to witness it
which made me happy.  They need to see these
moments of lucidity. 

On another note, I have a friend going through
issues with her dad.  She said to me, 'i want to
go out of town this weekend but i don't want to
leave everything on my sister'  WOW  what a
concept.  I wish someone would consider that
for me.  ha.  That will never happen. 

i miss my daddy