Jeez.
Everytime I look at my last subject....
they're the same.
Anger.
And today is no different.
People have no clue.
I had a melt down today after
receiving an email about our family
Christmas "party"...
Really???
A party.
I think not.
It's Christmas for the love...
A reason to celebrate but I
surely wouldn't call it a party by any means.
Especially since we will be missing
the patriarch of our family this year.
No one has thought to mention that.
No one has thought to ask if we should go see him.
No one has thought to buy and bring him gifts.
No one has thought of anyone but themselves.
I called my poor mother and sobbed and sobbed
She understands also.
She feels bad for me.
She doesnt know what to do.
These are her children.
I feel bad for her.
She is 79 years old. 
She sure doesnt need this.
I just really needed a shoulder to cry on.
Feel like I still do...
Will try hard to hold it together.
But.........no guarantees.
It will be hard. 

i miss my daddy