i'm so very happy that pops
is doing so great at the new place.
i know our saying is 'don't look back,
only look ahead' but i sure do feel
guilty for keeping in that hell hole
as long as we did.
i was the stubborn one who
thought the transition would be too
hard and i didn't think the benefits
would be that great.  boy, was i wrong.
he just seems so much better there.
happy even. 
they say he is great. friendly, nice.
he's not striking out at them and he
is letting them take care of him.
i will just look ahead and try not
to have the guilt.  it takes away
from my positive attitude which then
takes away from my proper caring....
i miss my daddy