smiles :-)

Today we had a care conference
with all the powers that be.........
I thought it went well.
They were very concerned
and also appreciated all of
the things we brought up.
Not sure what will happen,
if anything
but things needed to be said.
I am sure I talked the most
but then again, I know the most.
After the meeting we went to see
Pops.
He was in his room, sitting in
his chair listening to music.
HAPPY!
He was smiling like crazy

when we came in the door.
He was overjoyed and
THRILLED
that we were there.
That made me feel sooooooooo
GREAT!
The smile stayed on his face.
He was in a very good mood.
I'm so glad of that.
I had to leave right away to
get back to work.
Donna and Annie stayed I hope for awhile.
These are the moments
I live for...
The moments I treasure
and
The moments that
I hope come more
often..............................
i miss my daddy

Again, I have let time go by
and not updated my blog.
Kind of on purpose.
Nothing really good to say
Except that Mary was
here.
We had an awesome time
and I enjoyed her
company, input and help
in dealing with this situation.
Somedays I feel so alone.
I know I am not.
But....no one seems
to get it or to care as much
as i do.
Mary got it and Mary cared.
I am struggling with
guilt
almost daily.
I feel so bad that he has
to be in that place.
It just does not seem fair.
To live your life, earn a living,
raise a family, retire, travel
and then end up here.
UNFAIR.
i missy my daddy